I saw this picture on my Facebook feed yesterday evening in a tshirt ad, and it inspired me to share here what has been weighing on my heart lately. (The quote is a line spoken by Dumbledore in the Harry Potter & the Prisoner of Azkaban film.)
We all go through seasons in our life where parts can feel easy and others feel excruciatingly hard. Lately, I have been in one of my harder seasons. Trying to juggle tasks and circumstances that are not only out of my control, but ones that I cannot remove from my plate, either. It steadily drained my energy and my spirits that eventually reached an overwhelming point. I am not proud but also not afraid to admit that I have had days lately where my anxiety level reached the point where I didn't even want to get out of bed to deal yet again with things I wanted desperately to be taken off my plate, and circumstances out of my control to just be handled by those who could.
That is where the above quote comes in. During that time, I had also neglected to take care of myself spiritually. I felt it and knew it deep inside. But even with my failure to be digilent, my heavenly Father didn't. He heard my prayers for help, even the ones my heart couldn't put into words. Had I given in to my anxieties and not gotten out of bed, I would have missed signs like this:
Reminders that spoke into my heart, saying I was not alone, nothing is impossible for Him, He loves me, and He's got my back. Visual signs.
In recent Sundays, I've gone to church & although our worship pastor knew nothing of what I've got on my plate, he somehow selected just the right songs to play during our praise/worship time in service, and the words poured right into my heart. The perfect ones. Ones that I needed to hear, ones that I added to my playlist on my ipod, ones that I've obsessively listened to, like relieving a thirst that my soul needed. Audible signs.
Spending time with treasured friends who lift me up in prayer, seeking godly advice & wisdom. It is hardly the first the time God has spoken through other people, and it has all added up to provide me with exactly what Matthew 11:28-30 means when Jesus says 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
So yeah, that snoopy shirt design & quote works perfectly for me. Jesus said in John 12:46 46 I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness.
That is the light that is sustaining me, encouraging me, comforting me, and blessing me. It is helping me tone down the crazy and I am grateful. We are just not meant to do this thing called life alone.